Dear Nadeem,
I dont think we would be able to provide valuable suggestion unless you let us know if there were any situations where it was obvious to you that they were feeling bad about it. If you could help us know if anything like that existed, what was the situation and how they reacted to you, I guess it will be worthwhile in providing some ways to tackle this situation.
If this is your perceived notion that they "might" feel bad in future, I guess its better you continue working the way you were doing things until this day.
Regarding the following points you had mentioned above - "recieved a best performance award aft completing my first project, but some peoples think this due to buttering and spooning, Now 5 years passed and it is well known that i can handle big projects"
What matters to you? Your job and financial hike, or others feelings? (and these others are people who dont really matter much to you in your personal life)
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You know how you reached here right? Please note that every successful person will have atleast 10 people pointing their fingers at him / her. Actually this is what that pushes him further. Leave behind all such thoughts. Even if you try being good to them - whats the point? They are plain jealous. Just make sure you dont treat them back that way, thats the sign of a person with strong leadership skills. You should always treat them back positively and do the best to help them (when requested alone)
"I am lagging behind in Emotional controls, when I hear some false gossip about me, I am getting disturbed and some are taking the advantage of that."
I am pleased to know that you are aware that you lack emotional control. If you have reached this stage of understanding, then it means you have reached the level to change it. Dont let emotional issues worry you. After all - gossip exists everywhere. If no one gossips about you, probably it means that you are not doing well. When someone is "going great heights"...its the general tendency to find faults.. why care? You have the proper direction ahead, dont look back, infact dont react... people will then gradually lose interest in gossiping, becuase after a certain point even they should think of growing up the career ladder.
Now after 5 years I want to move one step ahead but it doesnt seems to be possible due to internal politics.
Its your mind that is blocking you - treat your mind to not react to such statements from people, you will very soon start seeing only the path ahead. Be this person who has a goal, and will fight until he reaches it.
I am planning to take a short break, and make my self prepared for the next step, I already joined an MBA for professionals, I will take some courses on personality improvement
Everything will be fine if you can train your mind to just look at work as work, and not life. Its just a means for you to go to the next step. Have a bigger dream and use these jobs only as steps to go higher. People will try everything to pull you down - ignore... keep moving.
Regards,