Dear magsus,
Your second post sounds like one written by a person who has borne an enormous responsibility for a long time without much to fall back on.
I hope to God that I am wrong. But, in the miniscule eventuality that I am right, I sincerely invite you to read on:
1. I am convinced that you are not a complainer or a whiner. But, your post is showing me that traces of both these traits have started to enter your mindset. I am not judging you or stereotyping you. I mention this because regardless of what other decisions you take in your life, please please DO NOT permit these horrible and totally negatively counter-productive traits enter your mind, body, and spirit. They serve ABSOLUTELY no purpose other than devastate and ravage an otherwise perfectly healthy person - intellectually, emotionally, spiritually, and physicall!
2. You are a man off deep insight - whether you realise and agree with me or not. You possess the gift of believing in yourself and having the courage of taking your indepedent decisions - regardless of what is the latest societal fad at that time. This is an enormously advantageous gift which MUST be cherished and built upon each day. This singular ability will in and of itself ALWAYS set you apart from the pack. Now, the question is whether you will allow this intrinsic separation to further consolidate your inner conversation, or whether the separation will get the better of you by making you feel 'different' and as if you don't belong to the pack
3. I too had a dream like yours. It never happened. But, I quickly re-calibrated my inner talk and achieved my next best dream. No doubt that the whole process took nearly 10 years, but believe me it was worth it. I've just stopped living that dream (I lived it for 14 years) and am on the journey of pursuing my next dream. This is the perfect opportunity to recall TS' quote - 'But I Will Always be Moving Forward'
4. I want you to remember that life tests us before it rewards us. I don't intend the last sentence to serve as the justification to aspire for and to live a life of mediocrity bemoaning one's destiny. That's an attitude for losers and oxygen thiefs. What I'm saying is that life tests our resolve to ourselves. It tests our resolve to our dreams. And, usually, these tests manifest as significant distractions and/or detours from the path we visualise in our minds - in those rare but totally priceless moments of solitude. Again, recall TS' quote - 'But I Will Always be Moving Forward' - is perhaps the best prescription to overcome those unwelcome but significantly beneficial 'life tests'.
5. As long as the mind is crystal clear about its intent, and the chosen 'end', the path has absolutely NO choice but to just carve itself - even though it may appear that the next step will lead to a brick wall. So what? Even if it does, its a wall we only intellectually know about. Its not as if we've seen it. Who's to say that the brick wall isn't littered with doors to other wonderful destinations. But, the catch is that those doors are not visible to all. Instead, they're only visible to those WHO TRULY BELIEVE AND HAVE FAITH IN THEMSELVES!!!!!
6. Which brings me to my last point. You said I think there are very less percentage of lucky people who gets what they want in life. You are Absolutely Right!!! The reason is simple - they are the ONLY ones who BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES!!! Thus, even when they are staring at the brick wall with the rest of the masses, where the masses see only bricks, they see Opportunities, Paths, Aspirations, Dreams, Challenges etc.. But, most importantly - they See Themselves ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WALL!!! And, that alone is why they ACTUALLY MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!
Remember - "What the eye of the mind cannot see, the eyes of the body will NEVER see!!!
Take care magsus - Believe in Yourself, Have Faith in Your Belief about Yourself - and Take those Continuous Steps Towards Your Dreams without Analysing them Intellectually!!! Just Take those Steps as if You're Sleepwalking. When you do Awaken, you'll be Amazed how Far you Travelled in so Little!!!
Go Grab Your Life by the Scruff of its Neck!!! You Deserve Nothing Less!!!