Hi All,
Thanks a lot! I already told my director to set up a meeting with all of us and clarify our work responsibilities. The director informed my manager, but he said he doesn't have time for these nonsensical things. I will try again. Overall, in my company, we have two sections: commercial, which includes Dispatch, Stores, Finance, and HR. Technical team members are open to these changes, but commercial members are resistant. The main issue is the age gap; all these individuals are older, while I am much younger (23 yrs). They have been here for a minimum of 5 years, and they believe accepting these changes would make me their superior. They prefer that I follow their lead rather than the other way around. They tend to argue over trivial matters such as housekeeping, equipment changes, parking adjustments, and other minor issues. They do not engage in any staff activities. Initially, I used to confront them and handle it, but now I lack the energy. I am not organizing any activities, publishing newsletters, updating notice boards, etc. They give me orders without proper explanation, instructing me to follow without questioning. I have been feeling depressed for the past month. I even took a 3-day break to refresh, but I am struggling to find the positive energy to deal with them. I feel drained daily, experiencing headaches and irritation. I have isolated myself, stopped laughing, and ceased organizing Friday fun days. Last week, my colleagues invited me out, but I declined. This situation is the worst in my life. I considered sharing this with my director but hesitated, fearing his opinion. I acknowledge my role in this negative environment and am unsure how to overcome this depression. I am contemplating seeking help from a psychologist. For the past 3 months, I have been trying to manage and hoping for acceptance in my work. I am typically a charming person but struggle with office politics. It has been 5 months now, and I feel like I am sacrificing my career. I have spent around 155 days in limbo. I question if I am on the right path. I have been away from my family for 2 years solely for my career. I wanted to support them and others, but I feel like I have wasted 5 months. I miss my family but can't express it. Yesterday, I joined a group, perhaps guided by a higher power like Shiva, and found good friends and mentors. Today, a colleague inexplicably shouted at me. I have always been polite, but I am neither able to hate nor love them. I feel like giving up, unable to progress in my career, engage in social activities, make my family happy, or even meet them. I am lost and unsure of what to do. Everything seems to rely on Shiva. I have contemplated if I am at fault somewhere and struggle to self-evaluate. Perhaps, I need to change my nature, but I am not there yet.